Thursday, March 24, 2016


So I was fretted upon. They fussed over me, making sure I had fresh coasters for my orange juice  because I kept tearing them apart. Carlsberg or Tiger coasters, when they're wet, they can easily be picked with fingernails.

Anyway, we got into a conversation. I began telling the boy of my rambunctious exploits in the world of Malaysian cinema.

Me: And then I told the director that I thought the voice over was horrible... and later found out it was HIS voice!

He laughed. He then proceeded to tell me his story - about how he came from the village and got a job in KL and is now saving up for a trip to Europe.

Boy: I lie!

I fixed my gaze directly into his eyes. I hate liars and I was stunned as to why he would lie about going to Europe.

Me: I don't lie.

He looked perplexed.

The boy's lower lips were trembling as he said,

Boy: But I lie you! I lie you too mutt!

Me: Ah, I said. I like you too.

Thursday, March 17, 2016


Picking up the pieces from a life half-lived.
Shoving away the dropped dreams that lay
on the floor.
Pacing the room where you lied to yourself
again and again:
Ashamed, you close the door;
and you think to yourself,
that there could've,
should've been
much more.

Sunday, March 13, 2016

Evil That Lurks

Evil is comical, I must assure you.

I was dangled a lot of things in front of my face by people who think I desire anything. Jobs, pussy, money. They think I operate like they do. Like I don't know which hole they came from. Because I've been to that hole before.

My ego, of course, started jumping up and down.

"You DARE dangle anything in front of me? ME? The Greatest Mind of the 21st Century?"

But... it is correct to simply sit and see these performers jump from one leg to the next, thinking he's such a great intellect and how everyone is beneath him.

My ego sensed their egos and wanted to jump. This is my training, to sit down quietly. To not react.

In Pendekar Laut (Tigershark) comics published originally by Ocean Creative or whatever, Pai Zonan went to an asylum to train his patience.

I feel like Zonan, even though I have always hated that character. Sang Elektron - Tony Loy - was more my style. A man who took on the entire universe. He died, of course.