Thursday, October 16, 2014

Againts Depression

I've been handling depression since I was 15 years old. Most people don't even understand what that is, especially those who pretend to be chirpy all day, every day.

And I hate these fuckers who pretend to be depressed because they think it's cool to be in pain. Dumbass pretentious fucks.

I can tell you depression is real. I was hospitalised for stress-related illnesses. I even thought I went deaf at one point or whatever. Got problem with my pee-organ-area that leads to backbone. I even had insomnia.

I know if I didn't change my lifestyle, I was going to die before I'm 40. Hypertension, that dumb sleep apnea, the lack of sleep and long hours were going to kill me, and not in a way I like.

So I researched the shit out of this shit. I learned meditation and breathing techniques. I got all New Age and shit. Changed my diet and shit.

How do I do it? I'm a fucking genius, that's how.

Seriously, though, it was having a clear grasp of The Truth. The reality. People can say or do whatever. They can try to do bad things to you, but realize that these people, do not matter. Focus is essential.

What matters is your work, your tasks and taking care of your self because without you, your tasks are fucked.

Morale can't be brought up with a simple gesture or just getting drunk at a silly party.

Take care of your work, and your work will take care of you - this is the philosophy and mindset of real workers. Only the weak play politics. Playing politics means you are not good enough and you know you are not good enough for anything other than menial labour.

They see politics as  a short cut - an easy way to bullshit and con their way to more money and feigned respect. I can tell you there is no such thing as an easy way forward. Those fuckers who used politics to get ahead - none of them I can say are, were or ever will be happy, regardless of the money they have stolen and cheated out of people.

Come crunch time, you can't bullshit your way out of delivering the goods on your word. Integrity is the ONLY currency that never gets devalued. It's the only thing you have that is valuable. It is the final inch, that distance where you draw the line.

I have huge respect  for people who respect their own work.

For me, I am on an infinite learning journey. Whatever I suck at, a few years later I will be an expert at it. Writing was my weakest subject, when I was 13. I hated people and was a failure.

I went through the motions, and I took control - of myself. I went there and I did what I promised to do, to ensure I still retain my integrity, my final inch. Come rain or high water. Or depression

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